How did Jesus do it?

I was on my way to work today and was in a great mood. I was listening to my IPOD which is filled with Christian music and I was really feeling it when all of a sudden a car came flying through the one lane tunnel that I have to go through on my way to work and about hit me. Before I even thought about it I called them a name that I can't repeat here. Ironic how you can be so in the zone listening and praying and then something can happen to just throw you in the pit of Sin. It made me really think how in the world did Jesus do it? I can't make it an hour sometimes with out sinning how did he make it a lifetime? I think about the person in the car that was going so fast and almost hit me, I don't know what they were going through. Maybe they had a loved one at the hospital about to die. Maybe someone they knew had just been in an accident. Maybe they had been late to work so many times they had been told the next time you will be fired. Maybe they were on the way to see a child be born. The point is you don't know what others are going through so it is important to stop and think before you speak or judge. I am going to really work on this in this area of my life. On a side note was watching Oprah and saw the special on the paster from Kansas City that is mailing out free bracelets to try to promote a complain free world. I got on line and ordered 15 of them to hand out to family and friends maybe that will help me remember to count my blessings instead of complaining. Now here is a praise that is a blessing hidden in a trial...my sister-in-law has to go in and have a tumor on her neck removed and biopsied. That is the trial part the blessing is that when we were talking about it she disclosed that her and her husband have started attending church and are going to become members. It was evident that she had a strong faith and I was so excited to be able to talk to her about God and the amazing things he has done in my life. This was an area we had never discussed before. I told her maybe the blessing was that this would take our relationship to a new level that maybe we would grow closer as we each shared our walk with God with each other. Please keep her in your prayers...

God Bless

I am being tested

Maybe I should have gone to church Sunday because so far this week I have been being tested in several areas of my life. There is a person at work that is really pushing some buttons and I am letting them. Right now I feel like I could chew the person up and spit them out and then step on them. Harsh huh?? I prayed on the way to work this morning that I would have an attitude change about the person but then when I got to work I realized that maybe I didn't want to change. How is this for honesty?? I am sure I will regret being so honest on this post at some point in my life, just not right now. I remember Natalie and Sherry talking about how they have had people like this in thier lives in the past and how they ended up being good friends. I am not holding my breathe on that one and I am not sure I even would want this person as a friend BUT... I have decided to try to channel my energy into figuring out why GOD has put this person in my path. Maybe I will be pleasantly suprised...I will let you know.

Calgon take me away...far away

Today is definately a Calgon day and wouldn't you know it I have no Calgon-go figure....My boys were wound up all day and night. My nerves are shot and I decided I better blog in order to calm down some. I don't know what has gotten into my youngest one over the last couple of weeks but he definately is under the misconception that he is in charge and not me. I had to set him straight more than once tonight and that was about ten times to many. It is on nights like this that I have to go back to the day that they were born and remember how happy I was when I first saw them and how much I loved them right from the start. I am convinced that God made them come out not talking and walking, not really doing much of anything besides sleeping and looking precious. By the time that you figure out that they aren't really sweet, cute and nice all the time it is to late you already love them and don't want to send them back. I know that there are many people out there that can't have children and that I need to count my blessings but it is nights like tonight that I want to volunteer my children to that childless couple ( Only because I know they would get to know them and send then right back to me) Thank-you God for giving me children even though they test me, drive me nuts and turn my hair gray I am convinced my life is better with them in it.

God Bless you.

Kansas Fun

What A Great Weekend

This has been a wonderful weekend. I got up Saturday and went running with my friend Rhonda and we were able to go 7 Miles. That was so empowering to see that we can do this after all. I came home and picked my son up from his friends house where he had the best time getting dirty, stinky and just being a boy. They have a creek and now he is begging me to make a creek in our backyard, I can't quite get him to understand that it is not that easy. Conner had a baseball game so we watched that last night and then came home and grilled out. We sat on our deck and just enjoyed our family before heading over to our neigbhors to enjoy ice cream sundaes with them all and enjoy time with friends. It is now Sunday morning and I went out on our deck and ate breakfast and watched the birds bathe in the pool and listened to all that God has created. I did make the poor decision not to go to church today, I was being very selfish by wanting to lay in bed a little longer and enjoy all of the beautiful day. I realized it was the wrong decision when my youngest was upset that we weren't going to church. I had to explain to him that I had made a bad decision, I told him that I didn't want to miss a minute of this beautiful day outside. He was upset that we weren't going. God has given me the right type of kids to keep me accountable :)I promised him we would go on Wed and the following Sunday.

Motivate Me....

The first thing I have to say is that I have the best kids in the world.( I am blogging this so I can remember next time I am frusturated with them) My neigbor took them to the Zoo yesterday and instead of getting something for himself as a souveinor my oldest son brought me home a bracelet. So here I am all dressed up for work and I have on my new bracelet with blue elephants all over it :) Isn't that great??

I ran last night with my friend and we went a total of 5 miles. We both have been getting a little discouraged with the progress that we are making but as I told her last night we started out planning on walking the half-marathon so ANY running we do is just a plus and I NEVER thought I would be able to run 5 miles when we started this training anyhow. After I got off the phone with her it hit me that it is so much easier to motivate others, be kind to others and even forgive others then it is to do these things for yourself. I don't know how many times in my life I have made a mistake and then beat myself up over it forever. In retrospect if someone else had made the same mistake I wouldn't have given it another thought. It is so much easier for me to encourage others and get them pumped up and believing in themselves then it is for me to do that for myself. I don't know why that is. I am going to start being as nice to myself and encouraging myself as much as I do to others and we will see what happens. I guess I should have said I would TRY to do this.

God Bless you

Why are you so nice to me?

I am not deserving of the husband I have. I came home from work today and was soooo grouchy. We got back from KS late last night and I needed to go to the store but I didn't so therefore I had nothing to eat for breakfast or lunch today, I am PMSing and I am very tired. My wonderful, kind husband stayed home with the kids today since they are on spring break and went grocery shopping for me but wasn't able to find everything on my list. I came home from work and was so grouchy, I was complaining about the new roof that was put on while we were out of town, bitching because he didn't get everything on my list and feeling completely sorry for myself because I had to come home and iron clothes. I went into my closet and tried to cry but the tears wouldn't come, I prayed out to God that he would help change my attitude, even though I don't know if I really wanted him to because I was kind of enjoying feeling sorry for myself. My husband came in and held out his arms and told me that he was sorry that I was tired or had a bad day at work. I busted out crying and told him that I wasn't tired and I didn't have a bad day at work but that I really missed my grandmother, I was hungry, PMSing and was feeling sorry for myself. I told him I was sorry and I didn't mean to be so mean to him and he said I know you don't and just held me while I cried. I am so blessed to have this man in my life and I wanted to blog about it so the next time he drives me crazy and I want to scream I can maybe remember to read this blog and realize how lucky I am. I often wonder why it is so easy to treat him so poorly. I would never treat someone at work that way and I would never treat any of my friends like that yet this man who would stick up for me even if I wasn't in the right and loves me just where I am is the one that I dump on the most. He really could teach me a thing or to about love. I love that he knows me so well that I can take off all the masks and he meets me where I am in my life and loves me there. We all need someone like him in our lifes. Thank-you God for giving him to me.

God Bless you